the room is silent,
still.
the air is
cold.
i hide under the covers
to keep away the chill.
i seek refuge
in the folds
of blankets.
the warmth in the darkness
becomes
my solice.
i hide from more
than just the chill
i hide from
people
expectation
myself
i wait in the darkness
for dawn to come
and bring with it
a better day
away from this cold room
ok,so i go to the specialist to get myself checked up(mind u the specialist is quite the hottie) and so i leran that i’ll still have to go for a scope,except that it’ll be on monday.which means i have to miss a day of school.which also means,i’ll have to spend a sunday at home,something i’m not too keen on doing.
well,i still have to have my ass probed,whats worse is it’ll be done by that cute specialist.damn it!
exams are drawing closer day by day.i hate to think that it might just spring up on me unawares.and i wouldn’t want to think of the consequences if i do.
all my teachers are telling me to think positive.try as i may,i still doubt myself.i’ve begun the very slow process of relearning.however it’s going a little too slow for my liking.
my health is also an unneccessary burden i have to bear with.i haven’t fallen sick in a whole year but in the past 3 months ive been a regular at my local hospital.tommorow i’ll be going for a minor procedure.here i am the night before,up watching SNATCH for the 10th billion mtime(its still a great movie)
fuck it la,come what may,i’ma live for the moment and live it to the fullest.
ever since learning sociology,i can’t help but look at the world with a different point of view.for one thing,i am undoubtedly a feminist.number two,i think i might be a radical feminist.number three,the institution of marriage seems like one big lie to me.not only does it oppress the women,but it also oppressess the men as a worker and the child as an individual.
unfortunately,realising this knowledge,i cannot change the world around me,which makes it difficult for me to accept the ways of society.feminist want to liberate women and change society.i don’t believe in creating a patriarchal or matrifocal society.that’s just wishful thinking.
all i want is for both members of socity to realise that in this day and age,men and women have become almost equal.women are gaining equality in the work place,gay men are proving that maternal attributes are not "biologically" limited to women only.
yet we,as members of society,have been socialised to believe that the man is the dominant force and that women are subordinate to them.it’s been going on for so long that even we women,have difficulty imagining a life where we do not depend on men as much as we do now.and men still feel that all domestic chores are meant to be undertaken by women only.
how long do women have to wait for the next revolution.our predecessors worked hard to get us where we are and yet theres so much left for us to earn.will we get what we rightly deserve,or will we just be satisfied with a lie,a lie that makes us think we are free,to actually keep us in chains.the bourgeoisie did it to the proletariart,men are still doing it to us.
so,the holidays have come to an abrupt end.never the less,it was fun while it lasted.the discovery of a sick little baby kitten brought new joy and anxiety in my life.unfortunately this all had to happen at the end of my holiday,so i left the little furball to the care of my dear sister & brother.but now it seems the little furball has left them,as it has disappeared.(?)
anyways,other highlights of the holidays were
1.sending sureen off to KLIa and chasing after her hoping she’ll spot us waving like mad,but she never did….-_-”
2.the maths tuition that was arranged to be held on a daily basis….-_-”
3.meeting up with weng joon for a bit of a bite(or rather me watching him have a bite while i sipped on tea)……=)
4.the many failed attempts to jamm with the guys….T.T
5.going to hospital numerous time only to get a wrong diagnose….-_-”
well,the end of the holidays herald a new truth;fatin a.k.a gigabiatch,would be leaving tanah air pusaka,malaysia.so the plan was hatched and set in motion-i was going to meet fatin on monday to lepak at her house which i’ve never been to.of course,everything we plan together never really goes as we had hoped it would.so,in just an evening,i became a fugitive on the run,trying to break into the place i broke out of….=)
but all thats well ends well (right?thats the saying right?)and i managed to get back in KMS undetected by a certain potato spud(ustz sofi)
well,now that life is getting back on track,i can’t help but feel overwhelmed with all tht’s happened in the past two weeks.keep reading for updates yeah!
