!wow,i got a reply from my fatin today,alll the way from ireland. at the end of the message she wrote "LOL".
I don’t know why,but i just did
it felt real good,too!
miss u gals a lot!!!!
whoa.can’t believe all thats been said and done.resit exams are over,time to get back on track.but i can’t help but feel so depressed here.day in day out its the same bunch of mofo’s everyday.thank god for the friends i have here who put up with all my tantrums and complaining.i can’t believe its been 3 freaking sems!!!!!only one more to go!!!!!i can’t wait to get out!!!this place is killing me slowly with its rigid rules,hypocrisy,jerks trying to be jocks but failing miserablely(hahahahahaha),and a whole load of other stuff i just don’t want to think about….urgh!!!!i’m planning a lil get awway this weekend and i hope that it’ll do me good,if my plan goes well,that is.i just need a lil fresh air,some time wif some good ol’ friends and maybe a jamm session wif the band(miss y’all!!!!madfish rocks my socks!!!)
Kiss.My.Shinny behind
when
depressed
deep rest
is best
-that author allie really likes whom i like too but forgot his name-
trust…it’s a trait we should all posses.trust is extremely important in life.it goes hand in hand with faith.no matter what we,we must always have trust and faith,especially in a relationship.
i think it’s important that everybody should have someone they can trust.usually this place is filled by family members & best friends.family,of course,should be there to SUPPORT you,NOT bring you down because family is a major entity in an individual’s life.it’s NOT EASY to SEPARATE the self from the family.so if the family member has an ANTAGONISTIC relationship with the FAMILY,beware of TERRIBLE CONSEQUENCES.
understanding is another very important trait that we must have.it’s important to understand the person whom u have a realtionship with,especially if the bond is that of family.sometimes,people are DIFFERENT.most of the time,we shouldn’t assume that just because we are family,that we should all behave the same.WE’RE NOT.I’M ME AND YOU ARE YOU.
i have to say that i’m disappointed with my family.namely the external family.they are more to blame.but then again,i guess we are all slaves to social expectTation,right?i don’t believe in that.i think that each individual can break free of social expectation.i’ve known a few ppl who’ve been so consumed with meeting up to other peoples expectation,put under so much pressure,that they just break down.i’m not going to be like that.to hell with whatever society expects of me,i’m gonna do things my way.nobody understands me like those who know me best,and sadly to say,it’s not my family,neither nuclear nor external.and unfortunately,or rather ironically,it’s those who are not related to me by blood,those whom i’ve come to know through friendship,that understand me the best,maybe even better than i know myself.
there’s a reason why everything happens.i believe in that.only i have faith in myself.maybe thats why life is so hard for me right now,i a time when i need those nearest and dearest to me to have a little faih in me,to support me.
i think i can find solace in a life alone.that way no one puts expectations on me but myself.maybe that’s what i should do….
