b*tchin n luvin it!

so today is the eve of my farewell party.the party itself falls on the eve of new years and newyears pula is the eve of my departure to langkawi.
slowly,one by one,the’yll pass me by.all i have to remember these moments fleeting by are the blogs that i’ve written about them.
so i’ll begin with this one:
yesterday was a very satisfying day.i wrapped up all major shopping.any items that are bought from today onwards are just minor,insignificant stuff like toiletries or extra pair of undies,etc.
i managed to efficiently reduse the amount of clutter in my room from one MASSiVE pile of junk on my bed to 3/4 small,ORGANISED,groups of stuff.
i have to say,i dont think it’ll hit me that im leaving untill i actually board the plane.and i dont think i’ll realise how little time i have left in malaysia untill i set foot in KLIA on the departure date(which is yet to be disclosed).
of course,a part of me is sad to go.i’ll be leaving all that is familiar behind.
subang.siblings.starbucks’s i go to in subang with the siblings.
but life goes one.before i’ll know it,i’ll be back here,eating satay with fatin and sureen’s mums(miss y’all aunties!!!!) and talking trash with tajie and shadzie.

with all this leaving bahind to do,i cant help but look back on the past.memories are a miraculous thing.its insane that i can actually SEE the memories playing out in my head and at the same time see all that is happening in front of me right now.and then i’ll do something stupid like laugh to myself and people around me will think i’m crazy coz THEY cant see what i’m seeing which is all the fun and great memories of the you’s and i’s over the past years.
to everybody coming to the party this weekend,here’s to everything that was and hopefully,will continue to be.to my comrades who are going to NZ on the 2nd of january,safe journey and good luck!!!to my dear friends who will join me on the journey of our lives together to NZ,we wil prevail.and to the those whom we are leaving behind,thank you for the memories,that will be the driving force that pushes us on and the bittersweet medicine for our cold and lonely days.
till we meet again,much love,from me to u.take care.keep in touch.forget us not.

wow,this whole leaving thing is really kicking in.

ive got 5 days till i leave for langkaWi

i thought before i leave i might as well clear up my room one final time,for old times sake.

i just scrubbed down my toilet.very hard scrubbing.might get blisters.yikes!!!

the room is still in a state of affair.that’ll take a while.

IM SO EXCITED BOUT FLYING!!!!!NYAR HAR HAR HAR HAR~!!!

so ive been hooked on to FF12 and ive been raving about it rite?

so i wake up on christmas morn thinking,hm,im too lazy to get out of bed but im too bored to stay in it.what to do?play FF la.ape lagi rite?

so i start up the ps2,im in the game,im killing baddies and im getting loot.im so exciting coz i was actually on a mission to gather enough loot to make a new ultimate weapon,the tournesol.

so i reach the save crystal and decide to save the game.but i was knda in a hurry to go down and see what i can find to eat.so while i was saving,i accidentally switched the ps2 off.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!BIG MISTAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh my god,i didnt know how this was gonna come back and bite me in the ass later.

at first i thought,no hal la.prob i’ll just have o start back where i saved the last time rite.

sad to say,i was wrong,dead wrong.

the next time i turned on the ps2 to play the game,u probably can imagine the shock and horror on my fae when i loked at the screen at the spot where my saved game slot would usually be and all that was written there was

CORRUPTED SAVE FILE

that is the very abrupt,very sad and very disappointing end to my FF12 game.155 hours,12 espers,6 great characters.all gone down the drain.the ride was fun.i thoroughly enjoyed it.would i do it again if i had the time?hell yeah!!!unfortunately,i dont have that luxury to spare.oh well.

i’ll miss balthier.i’ll miss fran.i’ll miss fighting one of those really tough bosses and trying so hard to make a high quickening combo.

well,at least,going back to the real world,i’ll have incubus’s new album to keep me company,and the PCD ladies to keep me dancing,and this blog wil help me train myself to type without looking at the keyboard(fatin dear,im sure u’ve mastered this trick already!!!).

Christmas around the corner,MARA meeting the next day,hopefully a gathering with the teachers a day after that,so little time and still so much left to do.

my days so far have been filled with visits to the hospital to keep my dear aunt company(u can do it,aunty!!!!!!).i’ve been eating quite a lot(thats not a good thing) and not exercising(this is even WORSE) so i can FEEL the blubber slowly coming back.ACK!!!!

i’m hopeping that i’ll be able to meet my buddies sometime soon.me n shadz r trying to plan a party for ourselves.a new year cum farewell cum shadzy’s bday bash.hopefully all goes well and all those invited come.it’s a small time event due to lack of proper funding and venue,but i hope it won’t be any less exciting.hehe.

i’m going to end this entry with a reflection on nelly furtado’s new song "all good things".the lyrics are beautiful.

flames to ashes,lovers to friends

why must all good things come to an end

loking back on life,many of my good things came to an end.friendships fostered,a good childhood in a great neighbourhood,high school and those bittersweet college days.but when i look at what lies ahead,even though i don’t know whether it’ll be good or bad,i can’t help but feel that i have to end the good things in order for me to realise how good it was and the memory of what was will help me get through what is about to come.ike they say,u never know what you’ve got till it’s gone,right?

so to everybody who had something,lost it and thought you’d never ever get it back,you’re probably right.but then again,you must also remember,you might find something better.

if any of this makes sense to you,congrats.it’s 12:11 PM when i wrote this.i think my brain is still on snooze. 

well,i can safely say that i’m wrapping up FF12.after 150 hours of gameplay(mind u,the first 120 hours were unaided),im left with only two more espers to collect,and only three more marks to go.hope to wrap it all up in about 10-15 hours,maybe less.

at first,i tot i must be crazy to feel so sad about saying goodbye to the game.i mean,i actually delayed meeting the big boss,despite knowing where he was,just so i could play the game.i have to say,right now,i’m doing some back tracking la.ive already finished the game actually.but i just can’t let go.

i actually went to one of the FF sites and found a girl who kinda felt the same way too.so i’m not crazy after all!!!!and then i went to the OFFICIAL FF site and read a review from a PC mag,that said the same thing!!!so,i guess im not the only one who feels sorry to say goodbye to FF.who wouldn’t be?!how can u say goodbye to such a hunkalicious hunk like Balthier?or not miss the way Frans dialogues are laced with an accent that is partially irish,scottish,english and welsh?or how worlds of imagination are brought to life thru the power of the beautiful and cinematic artwork of landscapd,cities,characters and graphic effects?

i started the game because i watched my brother play FF before me and i was taken in by its charm.but now,i’ll be ending the game,a bigger fan of FF than i was before.i eagerly await the arrival of FF13 with high hopes and unrelenting anticipation.though the graphics will most definitely be better than FF12,i doubt it’ll have a skypirate half as dashing and charming as my Balthier.

number of courses attended : 2

number of hours spent taking driving lessons : 13

total number of difference for shades of skin tone before and after spending 13 hours in the sun : 3

number of teh o ice consumed : 4

number of "buddies" made at driving test : 6

feeling after completing and passing driving test : indescribable

life might suck,but moments like those make it worth while.hehe.

i got myself a new little gadget to play with.meet Vivoe,my new compaq presario v3000 laptop.she black(for sentimental reasons),shes lightweight(something i wish i was,damn it!!!!), and she’s widescreen(more to love!!!)

plus,my genius of a brother got my little angel hooked up with wireless internet,so now,i can surf from my room.damn this is the life man!!!!

hopefully my daily blogging days are back on track.yay!!!

BTW,i’m ending todays blog with a declaration that i LOVE mr. & mrs. smith the movie.i’m watching it right now,the bit where they have dinner and are just about to kick each others ass.this movie is awesome!!!!!!!!!!