it’s never what you expect it to be
i’m at a stage in my life where i feel like i need to doubt every little thing that goes on because things just never seem to be the way they appear.
take for example,my English language skills.i thought that i,being a product of American and British TV show brainwashing,can be considered as having an equivalent level of proficiency in English as a native speaker.but it turns out that i don’t.what more with my horrendous writing skills,which was blatantly pointed out during my first sem in ENGWRIT101 and ENG104 in second sem.so despite appearing to be good at English,i actually suck pretty bad.which stinks.
it’s all very confusing,doubting everything around you.it’s also very tiring,which is not something i need to be dealing with right now because i have a lot on my head and my head is makng me dizzy and i’s not good to be dizy when you’r etrying to study.
oh well,shit happens
anyways,i’m trying to get my act together and so far it’s been an okay attempt.i guess geting back to the pace of uni is more demanding than i thought it would be.gonna try and be on top of the ball and ahead of the game.and i gotta renew my gym membership since i wont be going back in the middle of the year like i thought i would.dammit dammit dammit.
i wish things would just work out 
