i think deep,down,inside…if we knew who we really were like, we wouldn’t like ourselves too much
in light of recent events, i had a wee think about life and people and how the universe puts itself together.
though i profess to be a very empathetic soul, i cannot, with precision, predict what it feels like to be in someone else’s shoes.how we go through life impacts upon the kind of person we eventually become, and to put one’s self in another person’s shoes would mean to see things by taking on their perspective.but how close is our perception of their perspective if we have led completely different lives? how can i try to be you if i’ve led my life being me the whole time?
i believe that, yes, there will be some common experiences and that,yes, it’s not impossible to predict how another person’s life experiences would effect their personality. Shrinks and psychologists do that when they profile a person, though it may not be accurate everytime, it’s pretty damned close. but what about the exceptional cases? what about life-changing experiences?some trivial experience for one person might completely turn another person’s life around
Since i’ve been here in New Zealand, I’ve had to deal with experiences that have made me take a back view in the car that i call my personality and try to see myself for what i really am. there have been some ups and downs but i think if i hadn’t gone through what i’ve had to deal with while i was here, i wouldnt have gotten the opportunity to push my limits and boundaries, to test the waters of the deep(or shallow) pool that is my psyche. watching how other people around me deal with their lives has also given me some perspective on how our perception of the world is effected by our universe.by watching others also, ive come to realize the things that i do not want to be. whether i am them or not,i havent quite figured out. but i think having an idea of your own self is a good start for someone my age.
i think with my birthday looming around the corner, this year, im spending more time to really reflect on who i am n whether i like what i see looking back at me in the mirror. i have said before that i am a contradiction, that some parts of me are polar opposites of other parts. but i think it’s this ridiculous balance that makes me who i am. if i were only the good stuff.i’d be boring.if i were only the bad stuff, i’d be insane.
i guess what i’m try to say is it’s hard at times to see the logic of how other people behave. and there are most probably times when we ourselves will question our own perception of the world. when that time comes, i hope that neither of us will be too disappointed with the results.
